WHO ARE YOU?
All you want is the silence for sometimes. All you want is to defeat that unstoppable merciless time and take a small amount of it’s infinity in your pockets and have it only for yourself. No work, no play , no love , no fights, no looking at mails , no bitching , no thinking what should I wear , not to worry about dinner tonight,  no waiting for the friends, no waiting for calls. NO.NO.NO. Just you.  How much time you take for yourself? Thinking about yourself. Do you nurture yourself?  Do you ask how you feeling today. Do you smile when you look at the mirror? Do you kiss yourself? Do you stand and contemplate how you have been a winner to reach upto this stage of life from being insignificant unicell or you just whine about how you have become a complex human character who has lost this faith in human feelings. Why have lost your trust in truth. Why can’t your heart find any way to healing? Why can’t your eyes weep? What made you a stone and when did you become one. Do you have an answer? Lost. Silence. Defeated.
Why do freshers have to prepare and mug for answering “tell me about yourself” for the interviews. Even if we are selected for the job and come out of the cabin victorious, haven’t we failed in the biggest and continuous test of Life yet again? We just don’t know who we are. Close your eyes and ask yourself what word describes you. And you baffle. You can’t think of a right word.
So are the trophies decorating the cupboard of your hall worthwhile? Are those medals on your uniform are your only identity? Those certificates in de files the only proof your existence?
What you really want? What makes you smile truly? WHO ARE YOU btw? doesnt that give you Hibidejeebidis? A Faceless Face. A Lifeless Life.
Rather than waiting for love from others why don’t you love yourself. Why don’t you smile at yourself than expecting from others? Why don’t you cry for yourself than for others?
I remember my dear friend’s post in FB “If somebody seriously wants to be in your life , he/she will seriously work to be in your life.” and I continue further ” If you seriously want to live a life, live your life, not somebody’s else.”
What differentiate us from non human beings is our human feelings. But with this shrunken hearts can we call humans anymore.
You might have won various battles. But you can’t win the war without knowing who you are.
Sometimes you need to close your eyes to truly open your eyes. All you need in your life is YOU to stand beside you and only then you can stand for others.

Am i Dreaming ?

AM I DREAMING

Can you feel this thing

Or am I dreaming
 It's too good to be true
So I guess I am dreaming

It Makes me feel brand new

 Body is burns like never,
Sweat shimmers as ever

You do things, I never knew

Satisfaction so guaranteed

My head goes on a wild spin,
When you take me as a win

Teasing and squeezing

Opening and closing
Slow , Go easy

 All night you keep me riding

Take me to the land,
where I ll keep exclaiming

A certified quality,When your raining

It makes me feel go lucky,
When you keep winning

I know ,I know I am dreaming!

RMN
REMIN JUDE FRANCIS SALDANHA

Need to crack you down!!!

There's something about you;

And I keep looking at the way you;

keep pinging me, teasing me,
And I keep wondering at the way you;

keep easing me, dissing me,

Feels like there's a sign;

Even when u tie your shoe;

And though to me it makes no sense;

I can't recognize ; I need to revise;

But my temperature rise ,You fill me with craze;

I have to crack you down ;You are like a maze

You dusky ;So flirty; I know you are kinda fishy; 

You keep throwing me like Frisbee;

As your mood swings from jaunty to crabby;

Your vibe, Your style, Your hairdo; it so classy;

When you sing Te Amo, There's no escape;

But to be Numb Encore, do it to me like Jay Z;

And though to me it makes no sense;

I can't recognize ; I need to revise;

But my temperature rise ,You fill me with craze;

I need to crack you down ;You are like a maze.

Your smile electrifies my nerves, get shimmered;

Your touch magnetizes me to you forward;

You Google me like a word; Oh! I am so captured;

A soft toy in your bed; Waiting to be loved;

Paint me black , I want to be colored ;

Shop me all night, want to make you addicted;

And though to me it makes no sense;

I cant recognize ; I need to revise;

But my temperature rise ;You fill me with craze;

I must , must crack you down ;You are like a maze.

By RMN

Remin Jude Francis Saldanha

Why are you RUDE to me!

Like an aimless cloud

Dark and overcast

ever ready to pour

at that thunder's thud;

Was living my shameful life

with head down

decaying to core

lost those hopes to bud.

Reminiscing those words

" Taken and Used "

the unforgettable curse

paralyzing each process;

Torn among  Trinity of

my desire want need

selfish to be nurse

time now don't reverse.

Brightening my dungeon 

Go getter of radiant glow

flown in an aircraft

my Trinity has got a face

in form of you;

waiting , there's no option; 

for your oyee hello babu malu

and to pick up a fight

fail to prove how in love

I am with you.

You  make me baby so;

unfoolish ;uncomplicated, un toto.

super strong when u buzz;

super high when you kiss.

hate you for i love you;

love you for i hate you.

I know those killer smile & moves;

you Rude! controlling my nerves.

stop playing with my heart so purple ;

each time you say good bye.

And all i want is to

smash into you rite now

singing "teenage dreams"

and blowing balloons

maybe this is worst dream

or a sweet nightmare

my guilty pleasure materializing

dont want to wake up

from you this time to be

broken hearted again

Though this sleep i know

gonna be short lived

roads are and will separate

these feelings may subside

and you shall remember

as yet another guy existing

you may have many cuties

all i ask to remember

that i have only you

your one in million 

Atleast meet me halfway

I am waiting

Stop being Rude to me

RMN

Remin Jude Francis Saldanha