You Disappear!

If I shout and If I cry

Will you hear my voice

in midst of all our noise;

This love could not stand

and the trust had to collapse

My heart is a barren land;

Its so clear

as all now cease 

I wasnt your missing piece;

the puzzle remains unsolved;

Should I wait to type

or should I sit all day long

reading all your older texts; 

Is there any hope of a call

when you have given up

on me and all;

Still I see your face in crowd

sorrows fill my eyes

You wont believe me anymore;

Still I feel your arms around me

My body breaks all lies

You dont trust me anymore;

The more I think of you

The less I care of me;

I was high on you

I was high on us

Now I have slipped

Falling from this baseless height

I dont even cry 

Something tells me within

This fall is just the begining

as I see no near my Knight

there is no sun for this night;

I am choking ,I am suffocating

But its alright , but its ok

I like the way You hurt;

If you were my angel

you would have known

for sure

my heart has been faithful

my love was geniune ;

you woudnt ask my credentials

You see me now as pretendence

all is left is to reminiscense 

what was my error

when you were my desire

all I was blinded by love

all I did was went with flow

but yes !I forgot you followed the law

my feelings dont fit in your code

 What did I know

you would be so wounded

Forgive me oh my father!

for I have sinned

Is all that comes to me

when I complete my prayers

I dream to reach you

I want to touch you

but the fucking fear to hurt u again

makes you disappear in my memory lane

Remin Jude Francis Saldanha
*theres no one to dedicate*